Oddly enough

A different ex boyfriend texted me out of the blue. Didn't know who it was at first, eventually he told me and then I turned into a dick, told him not to bother me and auto blocked his calls. No loss there.

I'm here in Ashland, KY with my mom and granny! So far so good, too. Hopefully we won't bicker anytime soon. My mom told me we're gonna dress like skanks and go to a bar tonight then go to a Shriners charity party for New Years. I'm down for it all. Not much to do out here.

I miss Houston. Mostly its convenience.

And my dad... Who hasn't been keeping track of his sugar or blood pressure. Ugh.

And my cats, dogs and bunny.

And my wonderful boyfriend. Atleast we talk every day. I would be so distraught otherwise. Sigh.

My granny just fried some bacon. Yummmz.

I'm really not cross-eyed. Not really sure where I was looking in this picture. <3

What would drive my brain to conjure up these dreams?

Because, like, why would one of my exes (who I really cared about & who treated me like trash) just pop up in one of them? It was a typical circumstance... Just really unexpected. Could just be the same time of year that shit hit the fan that's to blame. Regardless, I hope he's happy. In the dream he approached me, said hello, asked how I was doing and the whole time I wished he hadn't've seen me. Cut the convos short, question answer no reciprocation, and FLED. Is that mean? Who cares, its not real but what if it were to happen.. I would only hope it goes that well. Hahaha. It's just weird considering I was sleeping at Charles's for the first time when I dreamt this.

Happy 24th Birthday to me! Received 24 texts from my best friend while I watched porn on my phone. Had to turn off my text notifications so I could still hear the audio... Du sex.

Anyway... I'm flying to Kentucky tomorrow (Friday). Layover in Detroit. That's a first. I'll be there for 3 weeks visiting family but mostly my mom. I miss her muchly. It's been almost 2 years since I seen her. Crazy.

Restarting my dietary supplement regiment when I get there. Total detox as I will be ganjless. Oh well. It's about time anyway. My will power is shite. It's back to working out also. I'll try.

Hope you have safe and wonderful time this season. Love&peace, ya'll.

Weird.

It's annoying how much my mind wanders. I'm not trying to think about who this guy is with now... If he has some girl living with him... Blahblahblah, especially when none of it matters because we are both allowed to move on. I have moved on, which is ironic, and he didn't have to. I wanted a relationship with sex & he just wanted sex. I have what I wanted. I would just be angry if he has the same thing... now.

Doubt it.

:)

But... I am happy. I have great people in my life and a fabulous man, who I feel so privileged to have met that I have decided fate must be real.

Glad things are the way they are.