Hi.
It's weird. I have nothing to do. I'm trying to get a job. School is done with for now and I don't have a great deal of motivation these days. I am applying to grad school.. as I type this and click between tabs. Sometimes it feels like life is moving too fast when I'm not doing anything. But when I'm doing something it feels like it moves so slow. Productivity is the key to a long fulfilling life. Something I realize when things are getting stagnant. I better cheer up before my vag ends up getting pierced next.
I am 23 now. There's really nothing to look forward to when it comes to aging anymore. It's all overrated anyway. Who wasn't smoking and drinking before they turned 18 and 21? Puh-leez.
I'm really excited to start up a few things I found out I enjoy. Like gardening. And once I get that money flow I wanna start buying more things to nurture the creativity I know I have. I want a new camera but at the same time I don't. They're really expensive. Hahahaha... and I kind of resent how advanced they are and how digital mediums are killing print. Makes me sad. I really love film and print... but I really dig the retro print look from pictures taken back in the '80s and past beyond.
I'd love this fabulous beast right here.. keep myself in the present. But I also want a Holga, which is ridiculously expensive and SADLY now overrated. I still want it.
Hmmm... I'm still in heart with someone. But not wholly. I'm too reasonable. I'm not sure I should wait either. I wouldn't mind on account of past mistakes I've made and how I feel like a different person when I'm dating. But yeah.. just gonna not bother. I need to work on myself. Love myself more. I wanna make out with someone SO bad. Kissing is my favorite part.
I'm still waiting on my new ride. I hate it. I hate thinking about it.
Anyways... should I be writing about something emo?
I miss my mom.
Trance music makes me feel spiritual.
I can't wait to grow.
Hope I don't die too soon.
Hello, 2011.